Save Me by Amanda Heath

Author:Amanda Heath [Heath, Amanda]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Amazon: B00K23LPZO
Publisher: Amanda Heath
Published: 2014-04-29T04:00:00+00:00

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My father’s mom left me a huge trust fund. She was actually a really decent person and I miss her a lot. She was the only grandparent I got to know and she passed away a few years ago. She left me her cabin out in the woods in Arkansas. It’s only a four-hour drive, but I made it in three. I had to get away from Meadows. I had to get away from every bad memory I ever had.

Everywhere I turn, I still see her face. I still see how fucked I made her. She’s fucking pregnant. I shouldn’t have done that to her. I just wanted her to be happy with the choices she was given in life. I didn’t want to lay any emotional baggage at her feet, and I come with a lot of it. I wanted her to be free from that.

And she can think I’m a bad person all she wants but I still won’t put that on her. What my dad did to me…and my mom, no one should ever have to hear that. No one should have to live with that but my mother and me. No one else needs to know.

Annabella is the same. Rachel doesn’t need to know the pain I went through for that bitch. She deserves better than me anyway. She deserves someone who can be open with her about his past, because I can’t. I can’t do that to her. It would be worse than right now. She’d leave me anyway.

But she already left me.

I sit on the couch of my cabin and watch the sweat pour off the side of my beer. I’m alone here. I’m always alone here. My mother knows where this place is, so does Wes, and I’m sure, before long, someone will be here to look for me. I shut my phone off hours ago because I didn’t want to have to explain to my mother what happened. I don’t want her to be mad at me.

I just can’t tell anyone what happened with my father.

I can’t tell anyone what happened with Annabella.

They are my secrets, and I don’t want Rachel to be tainted by that horrible shit. And I plan on dying with those secrets. They are my cross to bear and suffer with.

No one else’s.

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